Step by Step

So maybe I'll just aim to update when I feel like it. This week has been an interesting one. One of changes. I'm finally, finally finished my internship. It feels great be done with that part of schooling. All I have to do is write the 10 page paper for it, and hopefully get the A in the class. It was a nice send off, I felt a little betrayed by my co-workers when they rated me to my supervisor, but I feel like I stood up for myself and made sure those numbers on that 1-4 scale were to my liking. I am not a 2 in any sense, so I'm happy I stood up for myself and got 3's and 4's for my work. I think it was a good experience. I learned a little more about myself, and how I like to feel secure in my position, and know that I have full authority over what I do.

As of late I've been wondering about my path, wondering if it's the right one. Being scared about taking the steps to make it a reality. Its back and forth all the time. A constant struggle some mornings. For now I can only follow my own lead everyday and see where it takes me, take note of the feelings that come up and examine them. Being honest with one's self can be the hardest thing to come to terms with.

I just need to get through this week, get through my exams and papers for better or worse and go home to recharge briefly before the offical final stretch of school begins. I'll continue doing the things that that make me happy, and improve my health. Listen to music that makes me feel good, eat as well as I can. Find happiness and joy in the simple things.

Off to be productive