The Process of Being Reborn...take two

So much has changed in the last year. Most recently I ended my relationship of 3 years...a grand way to start a new year I must say. Its a challenge, not having the person you confided so much in with you. At the same time I recognize our many issues and faults. There were moments of extreme joy coupled with extreme unhealthiness. Relationships are glorious in the honeymoon period, but soon reveal each person. Relationships only become work when love is conditional. I have learned about my clingy patterns, my issues with abandonment, enmeshing and detachment. I'm in the process of figuring out what I want and need from a relationship. Someone who is emotionally available, a dancer preferably, a little bit romantic, funny, grounding, charming... the list could go on forever, but it is essential to call this into being from the universe.

In other news, I'm in my second semester in my masters of acupuncture program. I'm having a good time, its still a challenge though. Bones, tendons, points, herbs, theory and history... all wonderful yet challenging in their own way. I'm hoping to focus more of my energy into it as I heal and gather myself. The planets are being quite demanding again.

Saturn Square Venus

A sobering experience in a love relationship occurs around this time. You may be rudely shown ways in which your attitude and behavior towards a loved one is based on misguided principles. You may discover that for a long time you have been expecting the other person to play a role that fits a concept of yours, but is stifling for the other person. Now you must learn to let the other person express his/her nature more fully, and you must adjust to it. The opposite situation may also occur: you realize that you have been playing a role to meet the expectations of others and you want to be more genuine, and have a more genuine relationship with others. You are also likely to discover that you have some 'fair weather friends' that let you down when you need them most. You also discover some 'real friends' who take an interest in your deeper concerns and interests.

This is also a time when parties and social festivities seem to disappear. You may have a good heart-to-heart talk with someone, but very few jovial, light, carefree and happy times. You need to think about your relationships and attitudes towards love and romance seriously, and decide how to handle your current relationship. If you are not involved in a relationship now, then you are thinking seriously about what you want in a relationship, or whether you want one at all; do your homework well because your ideas and intentions now will strongly affect your decisions later!

Your financial situation may be difficult now also. Some reorganizing is needed and you need to cut out extravagances and waste. This is relatively easy for you to do now because luxurious, expensive, beautiful things have less power over you now than usual. You are searching for something of deep and lasting satisfaction, rather than 'skin-deep' beauty. Your usual pleasures do not interest you now, and you can become emotionally depressed. Allow yourself time to get away from the usual demands of your life and engage in quiet, peaceful activities. You will find this refreshing and rejuvenating, and you will come away much clearer about what you really want in love relationships, in friendships, and what material possessions are most satisfying and important to you.

We shall see.