New beginnings

So I decided to start fresh and create a new blog for myself. My old one, which I will still check up on for the communities and general entertainment.. left me uninspired to write. I used to love that journal, but it was locked up tight.. and even with such tight security I don't think I wrote down everything I felt. I had a small audience, and I expected their opinions... opinions that usually never came.
Or maybe I left because I can't relate to who I used to be when I wrote in that journal. I was, and maybe still am a person looking for acceptance and approval. I yearn to be loved and wanted by those around me. But I think the fear of that not being a reality has turned me into someone who would rather not look at an acquaintance on the street in fear that they wouldn't remember or acknowledge me.

I don't expect to write anything profound in this journal.. at least not profound to the general public. I'm not much of a poet, or activist. I'm only mildly passionate about external affairs. I can't rouse a crowd into action like a few of my friends. However I think that's something I should learn to accept. Not everyone is meant to be a great public figure in their lives... but that doesn't make them any less valuable than their spotlight brothers and sisters. If anything, I hope to use this journal as a way to face my insecurities and fears with complete honesty. I'm going through a period in my life where things may be extremely difficult to swallow... I hope this new blog will serve as a mirror that I can look into and not be afraid of.. even if I say and think disturbing things.

I can't promise excellent writing, but I promise honesty and reflection. Hopefully I'll tranform into the person who has been waiting to be seen and heard for 20 years.