A new resolution

Consider it a late resolution to myself. I decided yesterday that I was going to take a more active role in my life and in myself. As of late I've been feeling sort of disconnected to a lot of the things that were going on around me. I felt like I was just riding waves, and not necessary catching them so to speak. I'd find myself drifting off in some of my favorite classes, and definitely zoning out deliberately in some of my least favorite ones. I've found myself giving in to negative feelings and emotions, feeling internally childish and selfish, at times even jealous.

I've panicked at least twice in this past month, due to smothering emotions. I've found myself not speaking my mind, and literally silencing myself in moments where I've wanted to ask a question, gain more knowledge or share some insight, because I didn't want to feel like I was demanding attention. Such unusual changes in myself. None of which I've enjoyed, but instead simply endured. But now I'm telling myself quite firmly to stop. I'm going to make a conscious effort to change these things.

I've decided to:

• Blog in here more frequently. Daily would be ideal. It would be nice to document the ins and outs of day once more. It's nice to look back and see the progress, the changes and moments in my life.
• Do body scans and guided yoga more often, again daily would be ideal
• Get back into yoga, at least a few times a week
• To let myself be, I can have thoughts, even if I don't agree with them. Flow with them and see where there lead instead of trying to block their progression because they scare me.
• To get rid of my fear
• To actively construct my future
• To Enjoy Life More: do the things that bring me pleasure without regret or judgement!

Namaste!